valentine's day.

well it came, and it went.

today was just not a great day.
i have not been this down in awhile.
no, i am not gonna get all emo or anything.
everyone just has those days. you know?

well for starters, this weekend was college days.
i got lucky enough to help!
it was pretty fun to see people who i haven't seen in awhile.
but of course, all great things come to an end.
they all had to leave today.
it's nice to have my room back and everything,
but at the same time, it's rather lonely.
according to my assessment text.
i am 9.2/10 extroverted/social/people-related.
so that just expains a lot right there.

along with that,
today is also valentine's day.
people are out and about,
enjoying each other's romantic company, etc.
but being the cynical person i am,
i have never and probably never will enjoy this holiday.
not because i am against relationships and love.
i am actually quite the opposite.
but for me, i am not the romantic type.
maybe it's the insensitivity in me.
the assessment test also said that.
i am pretty equal in insensitivity and sensitivity.
but it leans more towards insensitive.
if that makes any sense at all. haha
either way, that's the conclusion i've come to.

other than that, i just slept the day away.
went to sleep at 3:30 this morning,
woke up at 9.
then went back to sleep at 12.
and woke up at 6.
haha so i wasn't kidding. the day was gone.
buuuut, while i was complaing to a friend about today..
first of all he said something that just made me smile.
and second of all i told him hopefully tomorrow is better..
and he said "tomorrow will be as good as you make it."
caught me off guard and at the same time smacked some realization into my head.
first of all, i really just don't know what i'd do without this guy.
secondly, i CHOOSE to have things to complain about when actually, i have a great life.

thank you royce jones.
for being that small voice in my head.
i really wish you were still here. :[[