oookay.
so in my previous post,
i wrote that i'd be adding to this blog more often.
obviously that has not been happening.
but michael inspired me to write in this much more.
not that there hasn't been a lot going on in my life!
it's actually quite the opposite.
as much as i love my life,
things haven't been going my way lately.
first of all,
i tend to not get along with girls.
especially after living in the same building with them for a few months.
it's not that i don't like them.. particularly.
more the fact that there is just wayyy too much unncessary drama.
i won't go into too much detail but for example:
three of us traded roommates because my current [[new]] roommate
wasn't getting along with a girl her OLD roommate hung out with.
tragic i know. soooo long story short, girls being girls and i have a new roommate.
then we have my quite depressed friend.
this friend is a good person. a very good person, in fact.
they unfortunately did not like puc so left after a quarter.
i had not been as good a friend as i probably should have while they were here,
but then decided i would just show them that it's not all that bad here.
i later found myself talking to them almost on a daily basis,
trying to encourage them not to do anything TOO drastic.
yes, meaning anything threatening to their life.
it's been a long, strenuous road, but i finally got through to them.
although they had mentioned giving up on belief in God,
they admitted to me, that after i told them i was praying for them,
God has been so much more apparent in their life.
this in itself was a blessing to ME.
but then again, tonight has been that whole rollercoaster effect,
and unfortunately, it's the "up" stage. "the climb"
i just pray that this person has not done anything crazy.
i'd be devestated and crushed.
not to mention the disappointment after thinking
"i may have just saved a life. physically, mentally, AND spiritually"
again i mention,
girls have generally not been my first priority in friends.
i don't know why, but it's so hard for me to be that tolerant.
i could name the amount of girl friends i have on one hand.
well i mean, girl friends that i fully trust.
so with that said, there's this one.
she is a new friend and goes to puc.
and she as well, has the same feeling about girls.
so much so, that she has had enough with her roommate,
that she's leaving next quarter to la sierra.
so basically one of the only new girls i've met and gotten along with,
is now leaving to a place where i have been considering myself.
what a way to put myself in an interesting situation.
which brings me to something else,
do i want to stay at puc or go to la sierra?
i like it here, i really do.
the people are great [[for the most part]]
and i love the environment, i'm not gonna lie.
the feeling of being in more of a nature setting is soothing.
but i miss being home so much.
the fact that la sierra is only about a 45 minute drive,
my family is right there, and majority of my friends go to LSU
really makes me think.
do i want to be here.
then again, with my major and everything,
i have much more opportunity when it comes to nursing program choices.
if i stay here, i will be much more likely to get into the puc program,
and also have a chance at loma linda.
whereas if i go to la sierra my best bet is loma linda, which is hard to get into.
ohhh the choices that determine life. :/
anyways, this is some of the things bothering me.
i wanted to write them down for future reference.
pray for me and i am doing the same... a lot.
"oh God, please help me and show me You're there"
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